( it didn't hurt constantly at least, a dull ache with some occasional movements that made her wince. honestly, it was more annoying than if she'd actually dislocated her shoulder.
except... it hurt her brain to think about, but if the dream had been her life she'd done it at home and now was just the after-effect? )
I know a few people who've had weird home dreams so I'll talk to them and see what they know.
( don't mind her stuffing a bite of pizza into her mouth first )
Stayed in New York instead of running away, moved in with a friend, went back to therapy, worked... few months later took a trip to Switzerland, stayed for a month, started realising maybe I'm not happy in New York for a reason... few months later I have the worst and longest day I don't understand and then we're at today.
[ Her turn to stuff pizza in her mouth as she marinates on all that. ]
Yeah, so that's definitely a mindfuck. It's like...you mentally went home? [ Which is definitely some Star Trek shit. ] But also stayed here at the same time.
Well, if my brain would like to remember that we don't have to mentally bring across the injuries too that'd be great.
( she should probably ice her shoulder even though it doesn't actually have an injury. here anyway. but maybe it'd mentally help?
or she could just do the typical adrienne thing: avoid it! )
At least most of what I went through was positive? Like they're good memories to have even if it's confusing and it's not like I can make any life decisions now.
There's that, at least. And sometimes I think that being here it's like...I
dunno. A break? Even if it's all fucked up. At least here I don't have to
worry about my man-child of a Dad. [ Said with all the affection in
the world. ]
[ Yeahhh like there's trauma there but it could be so, so much
worse. Juvie was no picnic. ]
Yup. He didn't get as severe of a sentence because I didn't rat him out,
but he still went. [ Mikaela's record is actually expunged thanks to
her dipshit ex, so at least she got that out of the relationship. ]
He's been out a year or two but it takes time.
( this is not an area that she's good at advice on, though you could argue that adrienne's never good at advice, though parents? she lost hers as a teen and their relationship was definitely not what mikaela's was )
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Date: 2024-05-21 06:21 pm (UTC)( because it was that kind of intense real-feeling dream.
especially when she woke up with some of that pain )
I mean, I dislocated my shoulder and I woke up in pain as if I had? I haven't dislocated my shoulder, I mean I woke up and it's fine but... it hurts.
( like a bitch. big pain )
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Date: 2024-05-25 12:31 pm (UTC)[ She's had some, uh. Dreams like that lately but not actually future shit. Just hella kinky. ]
Is it better now?
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Date: 2024-05-25 12:39 pm (UTC)( it didn't hurt constantly at least, a dull ache with some occasional movements that made her wince. honestly, it was more annoying than if she'd actually dislocated her shoulder.
except... it hurt her brain to think about, but if the dream had been her life she'd done it at home and now was just the after-effect? )
I know a few people who've had weird home dreams so I'll talk to them and see what they know.
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Date: 2024-05-25 12:54 pm (UTC)Sound coping mechanism in my book.
[ There's certainly plenty of it in this household. ]
I think I've heard it in passing, but I've never actually talked to anyone about it that's had it happened. Til you, anyway.
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Date: 2024-05-25 12:59 pm (UTC)( both sorting through what was 'now' and the other 'now', the weird time difference but also her life. or maybe that was just now her life. fucky )
Like everything was both last week and last year, and I don't know what to call it.
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Date: 2024-05-26 05:23 pm (UTC)[ Too mindfucky indeed. ]
So what all happened? Or do you not wanna talk about it?
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Date: 2024-05-26 05:29 pm (UTC)( don't mind her stuffing a bite of pizza into her mouth first )
Stayed in New York instead of running away, moved in with a friend, went back to therapy, worked... few months later took a trip to Switzerland, stayed for a month, started realising maybe I'm not happy in New York for a reason... few months later I have the worst and longest day I don't understand and then we're at today.
( yeah, definitely glossed over some bits )
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Date: 2024-06-01 12:33 pm (UTC)[ Her turn to stuff pizza in her mouth as she marinates on all that. ]
Yeah, so that's definitely a mindfuck. It's like...you mentally went home? [ Which is definitely some Star Trek shit. ] But also stayed here at the same time.
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Date: 2024-06-01 12:37 pm (UTC)( she should probably ice her shoulder even though it doesn't actually have an injury. here anyway. but maybe it'd mentally help?
or she could just do the typical adrienne thing: avoid it! )
At least most of what I went through was positive? Like they're good memories to have even if it's confusing and it's not like I can make any life decisions now.
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Date: 2024-06-01 12:45 pm (UTC)True.
[ That's a bitch. ]
There's that, at least. And sometimes I think that being here it's like...I dunno. A break? Even if it's all fucked up. At least here I don't have to worry about my man-child of a Dad. [ Said with all the affection in the world. ]
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Date: 2024-06-01 12:47 pm (UTC)Is this something I should ask about or a no touch conversation?
( she understands either way. nom nom )
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Date: 2024-06-01 01:06 pm (UTC)He's just still in the middle of the whole 'rehabbing from prison' thing. He was there a couple years.
[ So, y'know. ]
We run the garage together, but this is also the man who took a kid with him while he was playing real life GTA.
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Date: 2024-06-01 01:10 pm (UTC)( because that definitely could have ended much worse )
Was the prison because of cars?
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Date: 2024-06-01 01:17 pm (UTC)[ Yeahhh like there's trauma there but it could be so, so much worse. Juvie was no picnic. ]
Yup. He didn't get as severe of a sentence because I didn't rat him out, but he still went. [ Mikaela's record is actually expunged thanks to her dipshit ex, so at least she got that out of the relationship. ] He's been out a year or two but it takes time.
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Date: 2024-06-07 05:57 pm (UTC)( this is not an area that she's good at advice on, though you could argue that adrienne's never good at advice, though parents? she lost hers as a teen and their relationship was definitely not what mikaela's was )
Here definitely could be worse.
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Date: 2024-06-13 12:24 pm (UTC)Oh God, I can't even think about my dad being here.
[ noooooo no no no. that would be traumatizing. ]
Brain bleach, please. [ Like a shot of whiskey. ]